Control – 2005

Lost

Falling down into a pit
Dark maze with no way out
Looking for that shred of evidence
That would prove it all

Lost the sight, that would bring light
Loose that feeling
Give in to it and it leaves you
In an all-time low

My sole and solemn purpose
Is it just to bring and get delight?
That feeling I am and must be right
I just don’t and do I want to know?

Looking for that shred of evidence
That would prove it all
Lost the sight and bring light
I try to get out

One Chance

I shall decide what is good or bad
I will take what is mine
Time will tip the scales

The devil may take care of its own
I will take care of mine

One chance to take care of my own
Plans made, hearts broken
Dreams faded, created

I shall decide what is good or bad
I will take what is mine
Time will tip the scales

The devil may take care of its own
I will take care of mine

Chances may have passed before my eyes
My life at faith’s grips
My turn in time

Angel

In my hour of need
She will always be there
To show me the act of deliverance

She is my angel
She will always protect me

When I despair
She will show me
Give me the faith to believe in me

When I am in doubt

Creeping

Wondering what the day may bring
Still wondering at first light
Life promised so much to be
Quiet it does seem to me

Waited for a moment to be
What all expected of me
It has all gone away
Quiet feeling of dismay

Twisting, turning, restless fury
It wants to be free
Rattling the chains, chains that cage me
It wants to be free

Wondering late till early light
Feeling that something isn’t right
They have all gone away
Creeping feeling of dismay

Defined by Action

What have we become
To be like this
Ruled by what is fed to me
Knowledge selected
Something is wrong
My conscience says there is
Nice to know I can switch it off

I’m not getting anywhere
I’m not taking any risks
Who cares?
I’m going to live forever

I’m not getting anywhere
I’m not taking any risks
Who cares?
’Cause I will live forever

Nothing happens in my life
So all must be well
I watch images pass me by
I feel better already
Something is wrong
My conscience says there is
Nice to know I can switch it off

I’m not getting anywhere
I’m not taking any risks
Who cares?
I’m going to live forever

In my mind I am an island on my own
My life of perfect misery
I enjoy that of others

What have we become
To be like this
Ruled by what is fed to me
Knowledge selected

In my mind I am alone

Drained

Chains I break
No time to waste
Goals to make
No time to wait

Pull and hold me down
Struggling to beat the better
I will not hold, I won’t stop
I’ll rage and race forever

Raging on
Stop at none
Life awaits
I’ll sleep when I’m dead

Hurdles I take
It’s make or break
I’ll sleep when I’m dead
No time to lose

I stand alone

People surround me, but they don’t care to know
So I am lord and master of all that is my own
All is done in my belief, within my might
All else that happens is not my fight

Words made hollow, a world made shallow
Mine is the pledge, but now I feel, I’ve lost the edge

I stand alone in this cold life

So much is there to make mine
Many mountains left to climb
Conviction, by vision made whole
It’s perfection in a glass bowl
The drive, which pushed me on, to make it on my own
Slowly fading…, slowly grinding to a halt

I stand alone

Lines I write

I trust in you
For you are who I am
Comforts me, one step beyond

This book my life
Tattered though it may be
Keeps me alive
Wisdom of old

My story, my conclusion
This book is my redemption

These lines I write
Where they lead I do not know
But this is my book, my heart

Reckoning it will follow in the next book
Turn the pages of my life

Perfect Days

Turn of times and ways apart
The beginning, means of a new start
Didn’t we have perfect days?
Spent in blessed ways

Smile spent on good times
Wish to be together
Those were the days
Those were our ways

Do you ever look back?
Or am I the only one?
Seven bad years, seven good years
Knowing now the good years have begun

Smile spent on good times
Wish to be together
Those were the days
Those were our ways

Those were the days
Those were our ways

Play

Play the ball
Play the game of life
I see it everyday
I hear it all the time
A twisted game we play
Right and wrong has blended
No ref(eree) attending
No goals to be defended

Don’t understand the reason
I’ve never seen, seen such darkness
I’ve never heard such silence
I’ve never felt so lost

Don’t understand the reason
I’ve never seen, seen such darkness
I’ve never heard such silence
I’ve never felt so alone

Black day

Today is a black day
I heard a whisper of times passed
And so a journey ends

The soul has gone
A fading of light
And so a journey ends

You touched my life
Beyond fear and loneliness
And so a journey ends

Risen to the heights
Passed through the lows
And so a journey ends

I feel so lost
Afraid and all alone
And so a journey ends

Find guiding light
In memories that remain
And so a journey ends

So I feel no loss
For the memory stays
And so a journey ends

Today was a black day
I heard a whisper of times passed
And so a journey begins

Control

Hey friend check this
I don’t agree with you
I never have and never will
Our views don’t mix
Nothing to fix

Just realized this is not how I want it to be
Just realized I am losing control

Seem to be losing it
Losing it all
Seems like anger is overtaking us all
I am losing, losing control
I am losing, losing control

Hey babe check this
I’m tired of trying
Feeding all this living and lying
Our lives don’t mix
Nothing to fix

Hey, check this
I’m tired of this anger breeding
It’s time to take control
It’s time to take control

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